A New Muslim's Diary

That Final Push to My Shahada

That Final Push to My Shahada

"How did you know it was the right time for you to convert?" After all, I was reading, listening, believing completely and changing my outlook on life, but I still didn't know what the 'right' time was. My friend said, "There isn't a right time, Sister. Knowledge will always come to you along the way. You just have to know that your heart is there."

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Seeking Knowledge, but Meeting Dead Ends

Seeking Knowledge, but Meeting Dead Ends

Why is it evil to want to know the reasons why the Church teachings go a certain way? And if it is evil, why can't you give me an answer so I won't be led down evil? Why do you say I am not ready? When will I be?

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I Needed to Grow with God, so I Left My Religion.

I Needed to Grow with God, so I Left My Religion.

After talking to the people I have encountered with so far, I began to ask myself, ultimately, do the questions I am asking really matter? After all, it is unlike me to care so much about the trivial 'technicalities' of my Faith, but I kind of mind more that my faith should be able to help ME grow with God.

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Debates with My Dad

Debates with My Dad

Before, I have never had the courage to face up to this and instead shelved my questions for years. My parents keep saying there is this change in me, but this is happening not because I have changed my beliefs, but because I am finally on my way to seek for myself my own true faith.

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The Road Less Traveled

The Road Less Traveled

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,And sorry I could not travel bothAnd be one traveler, long I stoodAnd looked down one as far as I couldTo where it bent in the undergrowth;Then took the other, as just as fair,And...

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The Contradictions of the Trinity

The Contradictions of the Trinity

Fed up with the analogies trying to explain the concept of the Trinity, I decided to compile my own list of quotes from the Bible to sieve out whether or not Jesus ever mentioned that He is equal to, or part of God. The result? Evenย he rejects it.

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What Losing Your Religion Feels Like

What Losing Your Religion Feels Like

Losing your religion is a gradual thing. It creeps on you over the years, until one day you cannot take it anymore and say, "I need to do something about this." Butย losing your religion shouldn't mean losing your faith.

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Wanting to Fear God

Wanting to Fear God

Somehow I was never God-fearing. My religion taught me that God loves me so much that He will forgive all my sins, so what is there to fear?ย Will thatย STOP me from sinning further, or if I do sin, would I feel so awful and want so badly to repent and be forgiven?

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To the Hesitant Soul

To the Hesitant Soul

Dear Hesitant Soul, You wondered if you'd be able to follow all the rules. You didn't want to seem like a hypocrite; and you worried about your family and friends and what they would think. So you held back; you hesitated. This is for you; you're not alone.

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